what the hell he want ?!

i seriously dont know what he want .. i've already done lots of thing just to make him feel secure back .. dont suspect me n all .. but it's just seem no difference .. what he want ? i'm seriously damn pissed .. sad .. angry n disappointed .. everything i did just went into the rubbishbin .. this is so stupid .. u know what ? i seriously dunno how to continue this relationship with him anymore .. i really really dunno .. usually if a person reach this stage they'll break up .. but i really didnt think of it n dont want // what can i do ?! .. haihz .. no one will understand how i feel

he really doesnt trust me

he didnt message me today .. i'm the one who message him first .. he really very yan sum .. maybe he's busy flrting with the gurl he's interested ..i said i really didnt talk to aaron but he dont trust me at all .. i'm really damn sad n damn yun wong .. wth .. haihz .. people said if u're sad then should cry out .. after crying u'll feel much better .. i cried 3 times,.. didnt feel any better .. still very hurting .. why?.. well nvm .. btw .. i got message for aaron . aaron .. i promised my bf not to talk to any other guys except for classmates because he doesnt like it .. that's y i didnt talk to u very very long already ..i dont know how did u get my blog add.. but can u please dont add anymore comment coz i dont my bf to misunderstand again .. we quarreled because of this .. he thought i broke my promise .. he thought all the while also i got talk to u n tell him i didnt .. it's the fact is that i really didnt talk to u but he dont seems to trust at all.. so i hope u dont add any comment anymore ..sorry .. i'm know i'mtoo much .. sacrifice fren for bf but i have no choice .. i really love him .. if i dont then i wont do that .. hope u understand n wont add comment anymore ..

again

pwe quarreled again .. why ? i'm really damn sad ,, i really didnt talk to any guys anymore .. n didnt talk to aaron aready .. why cant he just trust me ? why? i really dont know how aaron got my blog address .. really ..why cant he just trust me ? i really didnt talk to him .. haihz.. crying again .. maybe we really wont last forver n i have to accept the fact

happy day but in the end still end up getting sad

haihz .. really very very sad today i really felt very happy .. starting to feel secure .. but i still end up crying .. why ? what's wrong with me ? Am i demanding too much ? i just wanna let him know that he's been treating me differently recently .. and hope that he'll treat me like last time back .. am i demanding more n more by doing that ? haihz .. really very sad .. he said "no point treating u good because u dont feel secure "this is so hurting .. he said i dont appreciate him .. whichpart of me dont appreciate him?! i try to give him what he want .. i tried not to do the things that he doesnt like .. i try my best to treat him as good as i can .. n he thinks that i dont appreciate him .. he thinks that i'm mou lei chui lau .. what he want ? i'm really very sad .. i actually feel damn damn damn happy today .. feel quite secure .. feel loved .. cared .. feel that he really loves me .. but why is this thing happening now?why quarrel again ?! why?! .. really feel very sad .. i really dunno what to do .. really dunno what to say .. maybe it's all my fault again.. what's wrong with me ? why always cause problems?haihz ..