why am i always in the losing end in every relationship ?

why ? why am i always in the losing end in every relationship ? is it because of loyalty or what? i really dunno what he wants ,he said , we shouldnt talk so often anymore , talk when we're free or feel like talking , means what ? u know , i'm really very tung fu now , really ,i really dunno what to say or what to do ?why must i know bout this only when i knoe that i cant live without him in my life or it's hard for me to live without him . i'm in the losing end now , i've lose everything , i've totally lose anythin , i just wanna know why must i be so tung fu n heart broken n tung fu now, i know he's getting bored of me , i'm not the girl he wants anymore , i think he might consider finding other gurl that suits him , i'm not sure , right now he still havent dump me yet , i dunno what he wants , u know i'm really very hurt n tung fu , i rfeally love him why must he treat me like that ? why i just be like heung ling , found the guy will love me , sayang me forever , i just expect to have a bf that will love me forever, i dont expect him to be perfect , loyal to me , love me more than i love him , sayang me , then i'll stick to him forever , is it hard to find such guy ?! i tot i foung one but haihz i really dunno ,='( , i'm really very sad n hurt , idunno what should i do?='(